When you are overweight, you tend to want to procrastinate. You may go so many days on your eating plan and then slip up. More than often that slip up becomes days, and then it may become weeks and before you know it. You are looking at life from "Day 1" again with yet another eating plan, and another set of new hopes and dreams, thus putting yourself at yet another set of Crossroads.
I have lived this insanity for decades now, because of it my life has never seemed to move forward in life and faith and with women. I open my eyes to the image of the 32 year old man staring back at me through the mirrors edge. He has this look of longing and loss, time has clear ridden on his soul and while still searching, some things have been found and implemented. So at least there is a foundation and I am no longer on Day 1.
I am no longer "newly saved", as it is not that I do not have the tools to overcome or even the drive, it is just that the "choice" remains. The choice to step forward consecutivly every single day. If not every single moment in every single day one step at a time, to overcome.
I am DONE being DONE, this implies I am through being stagnent and awaiting my next fall. I know now how badly I want my sobriety from this life. I want it so badly I can taste it and the taste is far more savory than anything that has ever been in my mouth before.
I am past Day 1, my crossroads are over and the path is layed down, all that is left is to step forward, one moment at a time.
Day 50...
- Xavier
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Saw your comment on Botzz's blog, and visited your blog. Just so you know, I (preferably in giant, bold print) am the biggest procrastinator in the world!! I spent many years telling myself that I'd attempt to lose weight "one of these days" and one day something just clicked, when I actually began to really try to do it. You've found a great tool in this area, and that is Botzz's blog. He has shown me and shown many other people that losing weight CAN be done, and not with a whole heck of a lot of difficulty. It's just about not procrastinating anymore. :) I'd love to hear more about your "plan," and what it was that made you decide to finally "just do it." It's different for us all. For me, I guess it was just time to do it (okay, maybe a little bit past time to do it.). I do really good with rules and regulations, and with losing weight, there's no particular rules that everyone can agree on going by. It makes it hard to figure out where to begin, but I, like Botzz, decided to do it the old fashioned way of counting calories. Measuring and weighing food and all of that good stuff. It's not bad, once you get used to it (and that only takes a week or so!) and before you know it, the pounds just melt away.
You say you are a chatter-box. Well, you've met your match, because so am I! (can you tell yet, with my ridiculously long comment, that I often leave, and then feel a little bit like an idiot for leaving...??).
Okay, I'm going to stop now.