You will always here someone of faith tell you that God's time may not be our time especially if they are referring to something you are wanting, or wanting to happen in your life. Oddly enough that is affecting me at the moment. A few weeks ago the van (my ride) broke down and that put me in the cross hair's of my boss at work. My landlord informed me that keeping my job was priority to staying in the apartment, then poof the next morning my job was gone.

Now I took this as God not wanting me to be at that kind of job, though as of today that may not be the case. I was thinking about this on the ride home. I spent most of the day at the job center looking for work or a grant , for that matter any funding to survive or find schooling with. I was just about to walk out when I saw a guard I knew and talked to her. She led me to the back where another guard had just walked in to look for officers for a new post. That man (the owner) took one look at me and it was like me getting trapped in a Best Buy overnight, he was almost drooling. I thought to myself this is so "God". Indeed I am sure it was God though one has to wonder what kind of plan this is. Obviously all in Gods time and obviously not in this mans'. The owner offered me work this very night. Infact he offered more hours than I have ever had before. The pay is about the same as my last job and I am familiar with the area. About the only hurdle now is stable transportation.

Again the wise person "adds" ~If it be in God's plan you shall have it~ My thought then as a simpleton would be to come back with "What's not in God's plan ?" then the crowd is silent, though not in awe of my wisdom, more an of uncertainty for who can answer anything after that.

We all want to take the positive in our lives and call it God's plan though when the negative hits us hard core so many of us look up at the heavens and go "Why me God". Now I thought about that , then I looked at all of my decisions during this walk. God has offered me many a life line throughout this journey and I have tossed them aside with the whole "that could not happen to me atitude". I am now looking at being without a home or a vehicle and unsure of medicine and what to do, though oddly enough there is no blaming anyone but myself. Not a pity party at all, not even a cry for help. I mean this is more of an absolution. This point in my life if it be that is making me more of who I want to become. I am finding an inner strength I did not realize was there.

For example and I am sure everyone in the world will laugh at this though I went to the city today and ended up taking the bus from one side to the other. I have never done that before, I have driven there walked around though never put my faith in public transportation and just stepped forth. Granted this is something small though it makes you think. All these small steps can lead a person to bigger ones. All this in and through time and in the end ultimately it makes you think that God's time may indeed be your time afterall ?