Over the holiday I was blessed in many ways and though some of the blessings are not as easily seen by the naked eye I am sure they are still there none the less. I am told life works in Gods' time not my own. I have pretty much no car or job at the moment and the clock is ticking on my housing situation.

You will find it is easy to say I "believe in God" though what is it that you believe ? You will ask yourself this when you find that all the monetary items are gone and all you have left to stand on is your faith and your drive. Oddly enough the biggest hurdle I have to overcome is letting go. My brain is still trying to calculate and solve and just letting go of that and letting God take over,well that is hard.

He has already put a slew of good christians in my path. He has given me shelter when I needed it and food when I was hungry, he has even seen to medicine when I was sick. How little faith it takes on my part for such a great reward, and this is only in life.

Can you imagine in heaven ? If anyone reads this and has an extra moment could you pray for me, basically for his will and for me to overcome stubborn pride and thick headed-ness. I would be appreciative.

- X